Your fellow brown sister who rejected her culture, heritage, community and roots because of the life long suppression, conditioning and shame imposed upon me. My whole life, I tried everything within my control to be something I’m not because being a brown woman was nothing less than a curse. From being kicked out of prayers for my bleed to my innocent giggles being hushed because women must always be quiet, I hated everything about being a brown woman. 

I grew up in a female dominant home with my mum, grandma and sister being the primary care takers of the household. Though, this didn't shield us from the effects of patriarchy within our culture, if anything, it further highlighted the deep-rooted impact of cultural suppression on women's freedom and expression.

At the tender age of 18, I encountered the beginning of what would be my journey to liberation and awakening of Shakti within. I reported a case of sexual abuse to the police. I was the first in my family to ever take such a step and break the generational cycle of silence. It was the catalyst for not just my journey of liberation but for my ancestor’s and future generation’s, it was an awakening of the HER within my lineage.

I was outcasted and shamed. After many efforts by my mother to silence my voice out of fear, I left home, becoming the “martyr” of the family. I had nothing with me, not much to my name, only what I had saved up in my few years of working during school. But I did have HER with me, I didn't know who “Her” was at the time, but I just followed her gentle yet fierce whispers saying “nari shakti”.

That day, my tears turned into gasoline & my feet ignited fire as I walked out of that home. Burning away the generational & karmic cycle of feminine suppression, abuse & powerlessness.

Ever since that day, I walked the path of feminine liberation. I stood tall in my inner knowing which revealed itself later to me as Kali (an expression of Shakti), the great divine feminine power that resides in all feminine beings.

My journey to liberation meant healing and reclaiming all parts of Shakti that have been feared, shamed and shunned: expression of my truth, menstruation, sexuality and being seen in my full power as a brown woman in society. Through this reclamation I understood just how much South Asian culture is centred around Nari Shakti but it has been so deeply buried beneath the colonial and patriarchal wounding that we have carried for generations. The codes to freedom aren’t outside of us but deeply suppressed within.

My journey doesn’t just end with me, I am now a feminine embodiment and healing coach for South Asian women. I bring this work with the intention of reviving the Shakti within you that has been shunned, shamed, suppressed and buried deep underneath the wounds of the collective. I originally started this work for ALL women but am now creating a space specifically for brown women as we have had the least access due to the cultural limitations. 

So my dear sister,

You deserve to be free.

You deserve to be revered as shakti.

You deserve a life of authentic truth.